New Years Blues?

I never remembered it being like this, but when it's the end of a year, for some reason, I feel a little down. I don't know what it is, maybe it's because it feels like I am leaving something behind.

My adventures, my heartaches, the good, the bad, my happy, my sad or anything and everything that has happened to shape me the past year. Or maybe its because I am getting older and with each blink I take I feel like that moment that I was JUST enjoying has just passed me by, just like that! The first time I remember feeling this feeling was 2014, the year I lost my dad. The end of that year felt like I was leaving him behind, even though, he was already gone. I didn't like it.

It's like I blink and another moment passes, another year... gone.

It scary how fast time is flying by. And if I actually sit and think about it, I feel depressed. Weird? or normal? I'm going to say normal. But, I'm not one for change of any kind.

Even the simple things, like my coffee from Starbucks.

It's the same.

every.

single.

time.

and I don't change it either, ever!

I think another year symbolizes another number my kids will turn, more milestones they will hit, the less they will need me, another year I will turn, creeping closer and closer to my 40's.

My boys, my husband, they're everything I've ever wanted. We are at a perfect moment in our lives, where we (think, we totally THINK) we have it mostly figured out, where us on an outing has become easier, dinners are fun (for the most part), the boys still adore me and cuddle me. US 4 have so much fun together.

And with every single stage my kids enter I say "THIS is my favorite." (This really is my favorite, by the way)

I know, I know.

The emotional side of me has taken over.

So, i'll stop.

But....

I am going to post some pictures of my life, remember what it looks like at this moment before I blink, and it all changes.

I would love to hear how the New Year makes you feel?

Am I alone?

Or am I an emotional sissy?